Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I would come back to blogging. I felt stuck, with a blog full of Jekyll and Hyde posts that didn’t correlate and felt forced-carbon copies of things I had seen other people doing that brought them “success,” whatever that is.
As I’m writing this, I’m sitting in one of my favorite coffee shops in Orange County drinking my second coffee of the hour, having finished my third book of the year.This is the closest thing I’ve had to relaxation in months.
So, where have I been? I’ve been working, continuing my relationship, riding, and recovering. Working as a barista at a place that deserves no other name than “The Beast.” Falling more in love with my boyfriend every day, and spending as much time as I can with him. Riding whenever I can, despite the rainfall this month in Los Angeles. And recovering from an eating disorder that I’ve been fighting off and on for nearly a decade. Pretty much, I’ve been trying to get my life together, like almost every other 20-something that I know. Writing now, my life has been plagued by change: some great, some scary, and all overwhelming but necessary. The blog falls under that.
The Equestrian Scholar was something I thought would fill a void in the equine community, but i quickly realized that I wasn’t really equipped to talk about much more than myself and my experiences-experiences that differ from day to day. I was writing about my journey like it was everyone’s, like it was normal, and honestly it isn’t. I’m not famous, I don’t compete internationally (yet), and I’m still learning every single day. So I stopped. And my viewership continued to grow, just not where I initially intended. My lifestyle posts were pulling ahead, and everything else was fading into the background.
So, now what? I changed the name and the layout, but what else?
Truth is, I’m just changing my focus. More posts on things I want to talk about and share, more personal anecdotes, and no real focus. More me.
Welcome to Skyelar Cooke.